I want to preface the next posts from 26+2 until 26+4 by saying that they aren’t going to be pretty. Nothing about this blog is pretty but these are particularly difficult days for me to relive and to write about. These days were filled with a lot of emotional ups and downs, and lengthy discussions about our future that I don’t feel I can censor or edit into single posts. There are a lot of feelings I had and still do have that are completely normal yet they are still a source of guilt and grief for me. If I’m going to be honest and tell our story then I need to tell the whole story because I feel that is what will be most therapeutic for me and for the people who have been dealt similarly shitty hands in motherhood and pregnancy. The next few days of my pregnancy are split into multiple posts because there is just too much for me to face at once, and it may be too much for you to read as well. But if you’re still out there and reading, thanks for sticking with me.