I am a nurse, a wife, and most importantly a mother of 2 children. My son, Logan, was born in 2014 and is the light of my life. My daughter, Ava, was born prematurely at 26 weeks and 4 days gestation on May 16, 2016, at 7:55AM, via c-section. At 8:04 AM my husband, Travis, informed me that she was not going to survive and at 8:05 AM he brought her to the operating table, wrapped in a blanket, where she died in my arms.

This blog is about my journey from pregnancy and beyond as I try to find my way back to life after infant loss. I decided to speak out and tell our story because I have learned two important things since my daughter’s death: There are more people than I imagined who have lost an infant or a pregnancy but for some reason, no one talks about it; and most importantly, writing has been extremely therapeutic for me while I try to sort out my emotions and my life. The more I tell our story or talk about her the better I feel.

This site is a work in progress and I can’t promise it will always be P.C or that it won’t go to some dark places but my goal is to keep it honest. For those of you who have questions that you’re too afraid to ask or if you’ve had a loss of your own and need someone to relate to, I hope it helps.